“I just hate L.A.,” Yassir stated. Enveloped within the arms of the person I beloved who valued monogamy and proudly launched me as his girlfriend to each acquaintance, I felt an uneasiness. The assertion felt private — as if he meant to say “you” and swapped it for “L.A.” on the final second.

We’re each transplants. Pre-pandemic, he lived in Hollywood for a few years, made the standard person-in-entertainment transfer to New York and returned to L.A. for work in late 2023. I arrived in January 2021 and began referring to Los Feliz as residence about two weeks later, though I typically saved that reality to myself.

Again then, I used to be fairly apologetic in my love for L.A. I nervous about showing a sure strategy to fellow transplants, my mother or father’s associates who’d solely seen Santa Monica and any New Yorker I got here throughout.

I wished to dodge all of the stereotypical perceptions about L.A. regardless of figuring out with them. I didn’t wish to come off as image-driven, though I discover solace in a stroll by the shops on the Americana at Model, the place I zip up skirts within the dressing rooms and spritz perfumes on the make-up counters.

I additionally didn’t wish to be considered as health-obsessed — I fairly actually purchase into Pilates courses and efficiency trainers. Or be labeled a workaholic — I don’t chill out simply and infrequently conflate my price to my productiveness. Or be accused of being a movie snob — I’ll skip a celebration in favor of a 35mm screening of a film I’ve already seen.

Early in our courtship, Yassir spoke romantically of New York’s late-night diners and fixed goings-on. I felt jealous, as if he have been reminiscing about an ex.

After we swapped school grievances and grocery procuring habits, a textual content change between us pivoted to his adoration for New York and his contempt for L.A.

As a substitute of skating over the subject or conceding to his opinion, I texted, “I understand L.A. has many faults, but I love it. And this is something you need to know about me, I am very good at loving and figuring out how to love.”

It was a conclusion I had been circling for fairly a while. As a 27-year-old, I’m nonetheless studying who I’m and the way I’m going in regards to the world, however I’m enhancing. This was a kind of private truths that after voicing it to another person solidifies its verity — and all within the title of Los Angeles.

He responded, “Huge green flag.” Identical to my associates, my household and Los Angeles, Yassir benefited from this trait of mine.

I discovered him extremely beautiful. My industrious demeanor ceased on the mornings I spent with him. I simply wished to run my arms by his darkish, curly hair and clarify what the phrases of Los Angeles champion Eve Babitz meant to me. However I additionally seemed as much as him. Yassir spoke with cadence and readability, enunciating all of the syllables of “definitely,” a phrase he stated very often. And he was particular in regards to the world, particularly Los Angeles. As a tv author, the town gave him rather more alternative and cash than it ever supplied me, and he nonetheless hated it.

I felt like a toddler displaying off an artwork undertaking at any time when I launched him to my favourite locations in L.A. Over eggs and waffles, I’d say, “Isn’t this restaurant amazing?” Or gesturing with my arms huge on a hilltop, “This view of Griffith Observatory is pretty spectacular, right?” I stated these items as if I have been asking, “Aren’t I amazing?” and “Isn’t looking at me next to a bougainvillea spectacular?”

His solutions have been at all times courteous smiles. I ought to have recognized.

He broke up with me final fall after a number of months of courting, citing variations concerning our outlook on life. He particularly stated I see the world with an excessive amount of sunshine. Positively too L.A.

I partook in my standard breakup agenda. I made my heartbreak Beachwood Canyon’s drawback, strolling and weeping to Amy Winehouse’s ballad, “Tears Dry (Original Version),” on the streetlamp-lined sidewalks. I went to my good friend’s couches in Highland Park, Los Feliz and Palms to cry a bit extra. And I sat alone sofa, one other “Sex and the City” rewatch earlier than me.

Nevertheless it was the phrases of a New Yorker, albeit a fictional one, that indicated my romantic path going ahead.

Episode 1 of Season 5 of “Sex and the City” is titled “Anchors Away.” It’s the primary within the sequence in a post-9/11 world. In a nod to the present’s fifth foremost character, New York Metropolis, Carrie Bradshaw spends the day reckoning together with her love for a metropolis that always checks her spirit. Nonetheless, after a possible love curiosity dismisses New York, Carrie catches a taxi away and muses: “If … you only get one great love, New York may just be mine. And I can’t have nobody talking s— about my boyfriend. … Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. Maybe you have to let go of who you were to become who you will be.”

With the devastating L.A. County fires following shortly after my breakup and the “city as a great love” breakthrough, I made a decision to like Los Angeles extra overtly, particularly in my courting life.

As is anticipated within the who/what/when/the place of first dates, the query “How do you like L.A.?” at all times arises. After Yassir, the lads I’ve encountered typically shrug their shoulders in a “whatever” method. Brunettes, blonds, mustached, clean-shaven, my patio-bar dates don’t appear to get it, and their solutions have alarmed me — their apathy nearly as alarming as outright hate.

How might an individual really feel detached towards a spot so dynamic, so succesful, so lovely and so humorous in its methods? A spot with a historical past so lush it might take a lifetime to find out how we received right here? Maybe my similarities to L.A. don’t finish with the town’s stereotypes.

Males who don’t perceive Los Angeles won’t ever perceive me, and for that, they’re unworthy of my deftness at loving.

That’s fairly all proper. I’ve a boyfriend anyway.

This writer is a contract tradition and life-style author. She has written for The Instances, A Rabbit’s Foot, Little White Lies and different publications. She proudly lives in Los Angeles, and Franklin Avenue is her favourite avenue. She additionally runs a Substack: babydancer.substack.com.